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Today marks November 1st and I have been trying to think about what’s changed and how things have changed in relation to my life and life in New England.

The first thing that comes to mind is that I was called to be the second councilor in the Elder’s Quorum presidency. Andy, I live with Andy and Debbie, is the President and a gentleman neither of us knows is the first councilor. He told me, when the call was extended to me and I called him on the floor for playing out that he hadn’t called me into the Elder’s Quorum, that he felt very serious about having me as the second councilor, the his initial response was not to have me in his presidency at all, but that he felt very strongly about having me as a councilor.

Have you ever just had one of those experiences that, no matter how hard you try, you just can’t get to sleep? Or, if you do get to sleep after an hour you wake up and can’t get back to sleep and so you lay about, or read, or do something else until you are so tired that you sleep, again only to sleep for an hour and start all over again. Yeah, I don’t sleep a lot at night. This is not something that is comfortable to me since I work, I go to school, I have my own projects I am working on and want to move forward with, and in the end I am frustratingly inactive during the vital parts of the day and asleep when I need to be awake - and forcing myself to be awake to try to get sleep regularly isn’t working either.

I woke up the other morning, it was uncomfortable and a part of me was completely set to go straight to the store, purchase whatever it was that I needed at whatever cost, come back to the house I am staying in and install it. That’s what I was going to do. It didn’t occur to me, until later in the day when I’d ignored what I was going to do, that I had lived like ‘this’ once before in my life.

I have begun to notice that many of my thoughts are beginning to rotate around the date of my move from Utah to Boston. There are the events that took place before the move and those that take place since the move. Nothing that crosses over between the two seems to matter, much, to me. It either happened before or after. Not during.